March 2009
83 posts
late night verse
tears form in my eyes when i’m feeling the worst nothing seems to make it better even writing this verse It’s like time moves so fast, it just slips away and just before I know it, livin in another today never did smile easy, fought through years of loss guess the internal struggle keeps me living, of course moms left when I was 5 same year grams died always kept a dry eye, fears...
perfection (pt 1)
everytime it never fails your mere presence seems to… your own gravitational force draws even the strongest of men closer just to lay their eyes upon your almond colored skin curves as natural as the waving sea everything everyone wants you to be and more thoughts of being with you can be summed up in one word arousing it’s like that one smell of a spring day or the perfect kiss…
twit feed (pt 1)
taking time to smell the flowers my eyes are open now the time not ours we live borrowed and when our bodies touch love like there’s no tomorrow
repeat
it’s like having this black hole in the pit of your stomach this weary feeling not knowing where to go fearful of every turn scared of being alone frightened of failing you don’t need no one else these are the words i here over and over again but still i question every move I make should I shouldn’t I seems so wrong seems so right…
fire and ice
we are soulmates at least I feel like we are two minds rolled into one and you could just be the perfect wife every time I think of you and me times get better your smile brightens up my day although it is a smile not seen often we are one separated into two different locales the distance takes away but i still think of you. the only one i truly miss but have never really known sadness fills my...
my attraction
i think i’m attracted to you yea, you i’m so blinded by the natural glow of your skin it’s probably just like brown sugar just to get a kiss form you i think i’m attracted to you thoughts of you seeming fill my mind every second of every day the smell of your happiness filling my nostrils falling deeper and deeper i think i’m attracted to you your smile making my days...
stream of consiousness
i guess when you love something, you’re supposed to let it go. if it comes back, it was meant to be, if not, it wasn’t. I feel like that is bullshit. Maybe I just don’t wanna let go. Maybe I don’t wanna take the chance of it not coming back. My heart hurts, I feel like i’m losing it. This desk just seems to bother me even more. i’ve fallen on this downward...
your touch
see when the rain falls it keeps a steady rhythm on the windowpane masking the sound of my rapidly beating heart see a kiss from you keeps me higher… thinking about touching that pretty brown skin it’s like a game and i’m in it to win best prize being the look in those eyes while i get to feast between those thighs intertwined bodies make for long nights and the rain provides the...
writers block (pt 7)
if i had one word it would be….. flighty thought swirl around in my mind like….. is it warm outside or is it should i brace myself for the cold yea, my else are closed because i’m scared to see you i’m scared to answer the question that we seem to be running up to fast random thoughts fill my existence and the only time the come in to existence and when we talk about we...
sad skies
can you stop the rain from falling like torrential storms in a tropical climate, rain signifies the sadness i feel on the gloomiest of days i close my eyes and i cry my eyes become the sky and my shirt becomes the sidewalk that catches the beautiful precipitation the beautiful insinuation that life doesn’t have to be lived alone feelings felt for years now become tuned into the channel of...
writers block (pt 6)
do you see this pistol to my temple like an expensive pair of headphones it’s like i hear your voice but the treble has been long gone leaving faint whispers of low frequencies damn it, i’m so fucking stupid i can’t see through it’s transparency looking back to the future and still i see my past failures running up to bury me cock the hammer back and attempt to pull the...
interwoven
it’s like i close my eyes and i see us close enough to taste your body smells perfect in the darkness skin so smooth when I’m so close enough to touch interweaved in tune with the rhythm of our heart beating fast as i feel your hand run down my chest you breathe a little faster as my tongue slides down your body so beautiful you put even the most perfect sunrise to shame and i think...
standing ovation
when i close my eyes i see ……….. and the exchanges we have are so intimate but how could they be hundreds of fans or one classroom look down upon this love affair a kiss so sweet it sends vibrations up my earlobes she never knows how to really touch my lips we get into arguments sometimes sometimes i don’t see her or speak to her for hours days months years at a time and...
writers block (pt 5)
open my eyes to a brand new day happiness cascades over my face in a torrential rainstorm my smile seems to be drowned and the frowns prevail they seem to float better
tears
cry your little eyes out my darling because I’l allways have my shirt sleeve to wipe it off. and if you call me at the wrong time, i’ll make it the right time just for you because everything I’m supposed to do can be out on hold for you if i’m your right hand man you’re my left hand girl and it should stay that way.
pale skin
if my eyes are closed if only for a little while I can see a small fair skinned girl with the prettiest smile with 2 or 3 balloons tied to her wrist red purple orange and black as she runs through a field of Green and Grey Acid and Ash Sweet and Sour and because we cannot have the better without the bitter She runs as happy as can be as she runs along the line of separation never straying constant...
blank
it’s like trying so hard to seem intelligent attempting to pen thought provoking lyrics just for some sort of approval rating from the un-approving fans
sleepy love
so soft as I hold you my dreams paint the most serene pictures kisses seem to be our only form of communication under the vanilla sky my fingertips memorize every crease and my lust begins to cease as my love is just beginning
drunk
i form these relationships in my mind relationships that never existed and in these imaginary commitments love runs through intertwined lines of being or so I thought it’s never anything but a joke everything except heineken and long islands tend to do me wrong….
contradiction
why can’t i be just as sane as everyone else I swing low and fly high smile wide but frown a plenty and when tears fall smiles rise like early morning sunlight…
laughter
my smile is my disguise as i saunter around confidently as i, hold my head high and make self depreciating jokes just to keep people laughing maybe they’ll laugh with me
music
I bleed 16th notes drink whole rests and snack on time signatures I make love to whole notes take naps on ledger lines and relish in the smell of new ivory treble clefs are ingrained in my skin tenor clefs in my larynx my heartbeats write the prefect rhythm to a soundtrack of life that i’m continuously recording i fight with 32nd and 64ths my body won’t allow me to vocalize that fast...
artistry
it’s you again as beautiful as you’ve ever been you bring a smile to my face and goosebumps to my untanned skin you see i turn to you when i’m happy and i turn to you when i’m not got me feeling emotions words can’t express i tend to imagine me and you taking trips all over the world but my eyes get opened as i start another mundane day in the life how do i express my...
writers block (pt 4)
simple words fill up a melodic phrase it reminds me of you like warm kisses on a cold winter day each note melts the ice in my veins i think of you as i touch each string and this beauty resounds in it’s body just like the beauty in yours and i try to beautifully pair each chord with a beautifully sung note but even the guitar and i fail to achieve such greatness that He did when he created...
idk
it’s like i keep my eyes shut but they stay wide open trouble all around me, throat closed, air cut and here I sit choking flames burning, i can feel the heat lapping at my feet but i just keep on walking with my hood around my ears music blaring trying to find my own solitude trying to wisk myself away from this place goosebumps all over my arm as a tumble into a sea of heartache only to be...
love unrequited
my eyes open every time i see your face my heart drops and i just can’t understand it clear case of love unrequited you see you and me we used to spend hours on the phone talking about nothing or everything at once so used to looking for your screen name just to say hello or how was your day and somehow in these conversations that stay ever so digital and impersonal these feelings start to...
cold air
i close my eyes open my mouth and take in a deep breath of cold air the feigned darkness my eyelids try to portray pierced my the beautiful sun rays that fail to warm up this cold November day my breath spreads out in front of me like a mist of wonderful delight and so i close my eyes and run through images of happiness bright warm days swings and trees and my heart drops just like the temperature...
sounds
the bass tends to drown out the screams coming from my insides and so while I listen to these songs i try to lose myself in a sea of inebriation Until i realize it might have been better if I stayed awake
sleeping
i just want to sleep maybe then i can run run from all of these problems that just continue to pop up i just want to close my eyes and drift into a world where everything is picture perfect the clock goes off and he and I get into a fight and he wants me to leave my dream world he being the keeper of the gate unlucky for him i know which button to press
heart
you are my love my heart and existence without you there would be no me i don’t know what i would do with out you and so i send prayers up to the heaven to ensure your safety in hopes that our savior Jesus Christ will look over my periods of non belief hoping that my mother can see you and lets her tears of sadness heal you within i pray that it is not your time you are my love my heart and...
crazy man
i go through periods of complacency until something wakes up this seemingly dark monster inside like this deep seething feeling of misguided hatred stirring up in the bottom of my belly… and the conversations have grown more numerous it’s like i’m speaking to people that aren’t really there having long drawn out conversations with the wind because it seems like she’s...
reality
i can’t think of a more perfect moment to be alive in mornings of sadness i close my eyes to happiness and in mornings of happiness i tend to wade through mid-days of disappointment i try to smile and the muscles contract and I just can’t seem to i just can’t seem to
saftey
it was a golden brown the wood was so beautiful i wish i could remember it like it was yesterday smiles replaced by solemn looks of sadness and myself trying to be the strongest lil superman i could be you know, that’s what your sister used to call me i can’t remember what color it was, but i remember you were wearing pink odd that that’s the color i like to see on a woman when...
eternally praying
i’m really tired and I feel really depressed. I keep telling myself to keep moving, but i just can’t seem to move forward. touching these knees to the ground in an effort to ask questions seem to get no answers is it because i’ve done what Job wouldn’t i have cursed His name on numerous occasions I never walked with Him in my hardest struggles, although it was in His name I...
summer love
this is you and i outlined in white chalk this schism hurts hurts my heart to feel love unrequited though you say it is you promised me love i keep on knocking but i can’t get in but you opened the door a little and so a frown turns into a smile when all the while that which was in front of me was not the full picture i see…. resting in each others arms becomes resting in my arms alone...
steel
i need something brand new to cut deeper into my heart stainles steel jsut to set free this blood stainless steel to set free the tears in my eyes pain might just be the final solution just to know i”m alive
falling
white tub white tiles blue diamonds all stained by the luxurious red velvet the beautiful crimson paint leaking down my fingers and on to the newly done bathroom floor i seem to be weeping but my body just doesn’t know how to make a sound the water splatters clumsily into the pure white tub as i continue to paint the floor red it needs a little color in here it once said so preoccupied with...
skin
smiles like that keep me running back faster than lightening just to smell your scent because you sent me spinning higher than a plane and i dont even know your name but it doesn’t matter islands seem long while i sip on another and smile as i see your beautiful face you’re the pretty woman every dude wants a piece of and i just want a kiss just a lil moment with you that i could call...
writers block (pt 3)
i feel like i’m losing my mind trapped in a twisting spiral of love is a four letter word like fuck and my auntie warned me about saying those and so this is how i feel on a chilly fall night on an empty couch in a dirty living room eyes wide shut to the things in front of me eyelids heavy because the pillows in the nest room are calling me they scream my name in the hopes that i will lay my...
street dreams
i been thinking about this long and hard it seems to be the only logical solution and so i close my eyes before i step outside and feel the brisk air across my face a smile touches my lips and i realize that it’s you i do this for trying to survive off 9-5 and only making minimum wage ain’t what’s hot in the streets and so i become one with these streets steal tempered stone...
fall
my heart sinks it’s like a rock on the surface of lake michigan never is it able to float but the slow decent is just so interesting.
feelings
it’s such a beautiful thing to feel my fingers touch your soft skin being able to breathe your beautiful sent when i wake up a feeling i look forward to each time we lay soft kisses down your body is what i imagine in the darkest of nights able to put my tongue in places that the human eye has never seen unassisted it’s never needed in this act of consummation just the needy souls of 2...
deadsouls
does someone have any change it’s a question i ask daily in the hopes that things will get better but all I get is ignored i spend nights eyes closed in cold alleys snowy sidewalks and green park benches each day my voice growing more weary because each day it seems like it don’t get no better on my knees each night before this sun times becomes my late night comforter praying to our...
love
can you please open up my heart is tattered and yours is still closed
crying
it is hard to write when you can’t find the reason why you keep shedding tears
a sad mans prayer
My Father in Heaven, I pray to you in the hopes that this will be some sort of relief. I sit at this desk today in eternal sadness, punctuated by tears hidden by smiles and lies to the unknowing. I stare at a computer screen and for the first time, i couldn’t write. I could not put my feelings to paper. So i write this here, while praying to you in an effort to breathe. Father, I understand...
promise
it’s been a promise that’s been stuck on the tip of my tongue ever since day one simple kisses, turned simply passionate turned simple love to marriage bound And what’s funny, i’ve found is that i’m nothing but comfortable You see, i smile when i hear your name and i love when i taste your lips the smell of your soft skin the feeling of your body close to mine is...
eyes
every time I close my eyes I hear the sound of the thunder flashes of lightening the feeling of the slightly cold water against my skin the razor blades that the water made cut down the very center of my soul soothing it seems to rinse away i feel each drop as it falls on my forehead heavy enough to break these already weak knees of mine as i walk slowly down michigan ave flashes never seem to...
alone
You ever been around a lot of people and felt extra alone? That’s how I feel now. I wish I was drunk or something.
writers block (pt 2)
i tend to open up one of these windows and just stare wondering where the words will come from will it be my heart or my mind will it be a song for they day or maybe a heart felt manifesto of imagination and emotion maybe i gotta make this song cry but every time i click on the left button to open up this blank expression i have a blank expression depression, happiness smiles, cries who knows what...
